Silence

252am

I have been drawing since 7. And I'm still only like half way done.

Then again, I am the queen of distractions, hence this post. Hey, I need breaks.

It'll just be another all nighter like last night writing that paper I put off... oops... But hey, last night I got two hours and then took a four hour nap this afternoon. And slept through my dentist check up... oops again. But it recharged me. I don't think I'll need to sleep tonight anyway.

Plus, I'm done with classes at 330 tomorrow. I can sleep after that. I just need to finish my digital project and form work for Wednesday... school sucks. Drop out while you still can.

Nah, it's actually pretty awesome. I just put everything off until the last minute because I suck.

Ian surprised me tonight. Just like ten minutes ago he sent me a message saying he missed my pretty face (ha! Crazy boy...) and that he's been thinking about me lately. We don't talk near as much so he doesn't annoy me as much and it didn't bother me. Then he asked if I wanted anything for Valentine's Day.

Huh. I hadn't thought about it. I told him not to worry about it, of course, and that I didn't need anything. But I really would love it if someone surprised me with a flower or something. I don't know who in their right mind would, but it'd be really nice.

I guess I need to find a Valentine though. Apparently that's the thing to do in college. Everyone has a Valentine, even if it's just a friend. But every girl has a guy and vise versa. And most people already do. This must be normal at other schools or something. Apparently it's just expected. I got weird looks when I questioned it.

I don't want to ask anyone though. I've worked hard to stay just friends with all my guy friends and if my past has anything to say about it, if I let my guard down, they instantly think I want to be more than friends. False.

But still. I felt stupid today being one of the only ones without someone to 'claim.' And it's still like 5 days away.

Normally other people's thoughts wouldn't bother me, but for some reason this time it is.

Meh. I need to draw. I'll probably be back in an hour or so for another break.

325am