Crash and burn.

1109am

Nothing. I have absolutely nothing now. Nothing.

Everyone is going to the fireworks. Everyone.

Except me.

Brandon has family he can't get out of. None of the band kids invited me because they all hate me and think I'm a terrible person to Brandon. Luke has Melanie to take to his party, his best friend. Kate is part of the planning for the college group. So there's no way they'd ask me to join. So I'm sitting at home tonight.

Alone.

My life used to be this great bonfire that lit up the whole world.

I had plenty of awesome friends, and incredible, amazing boyfriend, motivation to be everything I could. I had the world at my feet. My guards were going to be the best and I'd rock out the Pride audition. I couldn't wait to get to school and love every second of it.

My future had a million possibilities and I loved imagining each and every one of them.

Now? Now it's pitch black.

I have no friends. The guy I love doesn't want me. And I no longer have the drive to do anything. I loath going to guard now and I don't think I'm talented enough for Pride. I'm not looking forward to school at all.

All I see of the future, all I see of tomorrow or tonight is black.

I don't know what to do. I have nothing to do. I just hate myself more and more every day.