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1131pm

I cried tonight.

He made me cry.

He didn't talk to me all day.

He had all night open and could have seen me if he wanted to.

When he finally did talk to me, it was only because he had a dream where I was hurt I guess and he wanted to know if I really was.

I wish.

He doesn't talk to me on his own. He needs a bad dream to motivate him. And once he got his answer, he was done with me.

I've felt nothing all day.

Now I'm paying for it. All the store up emotion is choking me. Literally, my throat and chest are thick and it's hard to breathe.

I don't know what to do. I just don't know what to do.

I wish I was over him. I wish I didn't love him. I wish I didn't care about him at all.

I feel like I'm going to get sick.

He knows how I feel. Why does he never change anything? I've moved around and change everything in my life for him.

It just sucks because the only thing I can come up with is that he doesn't care.

Like on the phone when he bailed on me yesterday to sit at home. On the phone, he didn't care. He didn't sound upset in the least, nor did he try to reschedule.

He doesn't care.

Why can't I be like that.